Jocelyn Bartam has ridden an emotional roller-coaster in recent weeks.
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The Border product was set to make her Olympic debut as a goalkeeper with the Hockeyroos at the Tokyo 2020 Games in July, but will have to wait a little longer after the International Olympic Committee postponed the event for a year due to the COVID-19 pandemic.
Australia and Canada were two countries that signalled their intentions to not compete before an official announcement was made to run the games at the same time a year later.
"The days between when Australia had announced they wouldn't go to the Olympics before the Olympics were cancelled and before they were rescheduled for 12 months later. That six-day period was quite intense," Bartram said.
"You're always hoping Australia pulling out and Canada pulling out would help force the IOC to make the decision, but it's obviously not a guarantee.
"After the IOC decided they would cancel it this year before they formally announced it would go ahead next year, that was also a bit nerve-wracking.
"You're hoping they would just delay it, but there was every chance they could have just cancelled it and moved onto Paris (2024).
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"Now that it's all done and dusted and we've got it on the calendar for next year, it's business as normal as it can be preparing for that.
"You don't want to turn up to an Olympic Games where your country has been able to have a better training and preparation than other countries that are more affected by COVID-19."
Bartram paid tribute to the IOC for how quickly it made the decision to reschedule the Games given the level of uncertainty surrounding sport globally.
The 26-year-old is fortunate she's still early in her career and is treating the postponement as an opportunity to be even better prepared.
"For me, it's been quite easy to mentally process and move on and get back to the normal competitive mindset that you immerse every day in," Bartram said.
"But I imagine for other athletes that might have been looking to retire after the Games, it would be a much more difficult decision to come to."
Following the postponement, Hockey Australia decentralised the Hockeyroos' training program in Perth, allowing athletes to return home to their families.
With her partner still working in Perth, Bartram opted to stay put in Western Australia and has been able to catch up with national teammate Jane Claxton, who lives in the same suburb, to keep her fitness up.
"I was studying, working and playing hockey. Now I've graduated uni, so I'm not studying, work has shut down and hockey has shut down," she added.
"I think I'm driving the dog and my partner insane by taking them for so many walks (laughs)."
Bartram has received no further indication as to when team training will resume.